welcum little ones..

My sis - JK, just gave birth last nite.


so.. baby Caitlyn Rose Lai - otherwise will be known as CRL from now onwards, welcum to our little dysfunctional, weird & 'will-somehow-b-there-for-u' family.. I cant promise to be the best aunt the world can offer - but i promise u, i'll sneak in an ice-cream or two whenever 'mummy-JK' said 'no' to that.. it'll be our little secret.

:)

hmmm... if only i'm at home. Im happy for her - for them. Mr & Mrs Lai Jr.
and yet, im sad at the same time coz i so want to be at home.

now more than ever.

its strange how the world change so much over-night.

i wonder sometimes, if that route is ever in store for me. though at the rate im going at the moment, finding someone enuf to make me for once commit to one place forever & ever & ever.... seems like a faraway dream.

people said u'll find HIM in the least expected moment - and at the least expected place. well, tell u the truth, and not wanting to sound so desperate - i kinda hope He'll find his way to me coz if its up to me - i'll never find him.. coz, i'm tired. the whole concept of finding someone right is totally exhausting coz its always the wrong ones. the wrong religion. the wrong character. the wrong age. wrong timing. wrong city. wrong something - well, there's always something. and its not something superficial like his eyes cross or something..

maybe im just so fixated on not ending up with someone wrong that i always fall for someone wrong. so, at least i can blame it on them rather than on me.

well - i dunno. thats just a theory.

and it put a strain in my head thinking about all this. coz, its not even my thinking. its the society's perception that there must be something wrong with me for still being husband-less that eventually made it so believe-able. if only they stop doing it and start looking at how good i am in other part of my life. but no - now, i'm being judged by who am i with.

i cant imagine going back for the full-moon and those people asking me, "bah - bila lagi ko punya turn ni?? apa lagi? jangan jadi pemilih bah..."

dun u just wanna shake them all over (like realllllyy shaking them...) & telling them its not their life if i end up with super duper loser just to get out from statistic.. i may eventually end up with the wrong ones, but i hope when i do so - i mean - IF i ever do so, it'll be my own doing. my own choice and not bcoz im pressured into doing it.

anyways... back to CRL.. even if this 'Ati-Na' is miles away.. remember that, i'll always be there for u. in case if u kena rotan one day by ur mummy yg who knows jadi mamak garang (you'll never know!!!) - know that u'll always have a place in my home. wherever that is. and this goes out to my other two adorable nephews, JSG & ASG. and my future niece - keisya.

eh!! ada nama suda.. hahahha

well, the pic is up. just check out the bloglist. under JUST ME & US...

to LL & JK.. congrats.
many times over.

muahss.. thats for the newborn.
buat pa sia mau kiss korang..
ish.. teda kerja.

bah k la.