i know him so well..

Nothing is so good it lasts eternally
Perfect situations must go wrong
But this has never yet prevented me
Wanting far too much
For far too long

Looking back I could have played it differently
Won a few more moments - Who can tell
But it took time to understand the man
Now at least I know
I know him well

Wasn't it good?
(Oh so good)
Wasn't he fine?
(Oh so fine)
Isn't it madness - He can't be mine?
But in the end he needs a little bit
More than me
More security
He needs his fantasy and freedom
I know him so well



No-one in your life is with you constantly
No-one is completely on your side
And though I'd move my world to be with him
Still the gap between us is too wide

Looking back
(Looking back)
I could have played it differently
(I could have played it some other way)
Learned about the man before I fell
(I was just a little careless)
But I was ever so much younger then
(Maybe, so much younger then)
Now at least I know - I know him well

Wasn't it good?
(Oh so good)
Wasn't he fine?
(Oh so fine)
Isn't it madness - He won't be mine?

Didn't I know?
How it would go,
If I knew from the start
Why am I falling apart?

Wasn't it good
Wasn't he fine?
Isn't it madness - He won't be mine?

But in the end
He needs a little bit
More than me
More security
He needs his fantasy and freedom
I know him so well.

It took time to understand him
I know him so well.

p.s.
Love me - and the world is mine.
~David Reed

Di Pintu Syurga..

its wierd..

i kinda dreamt something which somehow reminds me of the song.. and i woke up wanting to hear it..

it was on repeat in my car just now.. until i've had enough of it.. and yeah i wouldnt want it to give me some kind of sign while being on the road.. it was a longggggggg journey home just now.. whats with the jam and i missed the first singer in american idol.

damn... nasib baik si budak yg nyanyi.. so its all good..

By KRU ft. Elite

whatever it is/was my dream is telling me.. i kinda like this song.. dont mind the music video.. they all look super young then..

so sad kan..
the song.
not me.

coz i would surely wait at the heaven's door had i gone first.. of course provided i didnt end up "NOT there"..

haha.

owell..

over and out.

Angels Cry

Mariah:
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we goin' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry



Ne-Yo:
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
And

We were so good together
How come we could not weather?
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye?

'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

Mariah & Ne-Yo:
C'mon babe can't our love be revived?
Bring it back and we goin' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Oh babe, the angels cry

performed by:
Mariah Carey ft. Ne-Yo

Gravity

Something always
- brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
... than to drown in your love
.... and not feel your reign.

[CHORUS:]
Set me free, leave me be
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
... just the way I'm supposed to be
but you're on to me and all over me

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile
and I thought that I was strong
but you touch me for a little while
... and all my fragile strength is gone



[CHORUS:]
Set me free, leave me be
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
... just the way I'm supposed to be
but you're on to me and all over me

I live here on my knees
.. as I try to make you see
that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe
... though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know is that
... you're keeping me down

- keeping me down down
you're on to me, you're on to me .. you're all over

something always brings me back to you
... it never takes too long

By: Sara Barailles

World 25

the world is still recovering from haiti.. and then chile comes along.. hawaii almost. japan almost.

im not proud to say this.. but im one of them thousands if not millions who didnt sleep waiting for the "countdown" at hawaii.. its live on CNN - every angle was covered. who wouldnt get excited like that?? its like watching movie. almost surreal. and i was almost dissapointed when i didnt see the big wave. not that i wanted it to happen. im glad it didnt happen. that you have to understand.

i may be evil at times. but NOT to that extent.
heheh..

anyway.. when one disaster after another strikes us - without even giving the world a chance to breath.. we start questioning.. what is really happening to the world? is it really the sign that the end is coming? why give signs? cant u just end already?

hah!

welll.. the point to this blog is the song..

i love the collaboration.. but im just thinking how cum my hubby, david cook not there ah?? aishhhh...

as said.. do more than just listen. feel the song.

may God be with those in need.

:)

p.s.
happy birthday sis.
wish upon the star. may you get what u wished for.
:)

Dear God...

By Avenged Sevenfold

A lonely road - crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
- purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you is
- to hold her when I'm not around
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again
- oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
- and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories
- will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God,
the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again
- oh no
Once again

Some search - never finding a way
Before long - they waste away
I found you - something told me to stay
I gave in - to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road - crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
- purpose hard to find

Dear God,
the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
- when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again
- oh no
Once again

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loving the song BIG time...

p.s.
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"Think big thoughts,
but relish small pleasures. "

The Climb

im feeling particularly down these past few days or weeks. im not sure why or maybe i do. i just dont feel the need to shout it outloud. its june. its passed 6 months since i last breath in the new lease of life - or the thought of it, to say the least. and its another 6 months to make it happen. its just that i cant see me making it happen. since i have alot of things in my mind lately.. im gonna say it to the world with a song. or rather have it said to me.

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin'
You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

but I
I got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always going to be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going

And I - I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
coz..

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always going to be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

(repeat *)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

[performed by: Miley Cyrus]

How Can I Not Love You ?

Cannot touch
- cannot hold

cannot be together
- cannot love
cannot kiss
- cannot have each other

Must be strong
and we must let go
Cannot say...
what our hearts must know

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do i not want you
- here in my arms?
How does one waltz away
- from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you
- when you are gone?

Cannot dream
Cannot share
- sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel,
- must pretend it's over

Must be brave
- and we must go on
Must not say
- what we've known all along

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do i not want you
- here in my arms?
How does one waltz away
- from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you
- when you are gone?
How can I not love you?

Must be brave
- and we must be strong
Cannot say
- what we've known all along

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do i not want you
- here in my arms?
How does one waltz away
- from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you
- when you are gone?

How can I not love you?
- when you are gone?

[performed by : Joy Enriquez]

Happy Birthday,
you.
25.05.2009 23:59

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

JK called me just now asking for the lyric.. when i was busy having discussion with my diving instructor.. hahha.. and i totally forgotten about it.

well, sis.. here goes.. i know how much lilin loves this song.. and i hope, it'll do wonders to the other 3 little ones at home..

i sure love - absolutely - love this song.

its the song i sleep to - everynight.
yup. its in my handphone now.

on repeat.

good nite everyone.
may all your wishes come true.

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Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky

Star light
Star bright
The first star I see tonight

I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the wish
.... I wish tonight

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are
I have so many wishes to make
But most of all is what I state

So just wonder
That I've been dreaming of
I wish that I can have all his love

I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the dream
.... I dream tonight

Ooo baby

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are
I want a man who'll be all mine
And wants to say that I'm his girl

Someones sweet that's for sure
I want to be the girl hes looking for

I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the man I wish tonight

Ooo baby

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky

Star light
Star bright
The first star I see tonight

I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the wish
.... I wish tonight

performed by: Kai

Fairytale of New York

there are times when its late at night.. when u r far away from home.. and u just miss home like cracko..

and this song is on repeat in your hp..
and u wish its that time of the year again.

you may have heard the song before in P.S. I Love You.



hmmm..

i miss christmas..

i wish christmas come sooner..
and its only march..


:(

a.l.m.o.s.t.

Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had?
How could I reminisce
- when there is no past?
How could I have memories
- of being happy with you boy?
Can someone tell me how can this be

How could my mind pull up incidents?
Recall dates and times that never happened?
How could we celebrate a love that's too late?
And how could I really mean
- the words I'm bout to say?

[Chorus]
I missed the times
- that we almost shared
I miss the love
- that was almost there
I miss the times
- that we used to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times
- that we never had
What happened to us??
we were almost there
Whoever said
- it's impossible to miss??
- when you never had
Never almost had you

I cannot believe I let you go

Or what I should've said
I should've grabbed you up
- and never let you go
I should've went out with you
I should've made you my boo boy
Yes that's one time
- I should've broke the rules
I should've went on a date
Should've found a way to escape
Should've turned it into an almost into
If it happened now its too late
How could I celebrate
- a love that wasn't real??
And if it didn't happen
- why does my heart feel?

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ [Chorus]

(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be -
the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ [Chorus]

Performed by ~ Tamia

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happy v. day.
you.

Tomorrow..

Just thinkin' about
- tomorrow -
Clears away the cobwebs
and the sorrow
'til there's none!

When I'm stuck with a day
that's gray,
and lonely,
I just stick out my chin
and grin,
and say,
Oh!

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow! Tomorrow!
I love ya
Tomorrow!
You're only
- a day
- away!

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love this song.. so sweet..
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p.s.
sometimes - if you cant change what you have
- then change for what you want to have.

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p.p.s.
happy 61st birthday daddy..
may God bless u with good health.
love u dad-kutZ.
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thats all folks.
over and out.

Christmas Tree Lightings @ Rockerfeller NY

the lighting of the christmas tree at rockerfeller centre has always been monumental as the start of the season. for the new yorker at least.. the first time i saw it was in "Home Alone" where little macaulay got lost in New York.

I love christmas tree and everything that cums with it.. especially those yg nicely decorated with lots and lots of christmas lights.

the mere act of putting up a christmas tree at home always always marked the beginning of my christmas - at least thats how i feel - even if i put it up as early as in mid-november... and i get to have that christmas spirit bit longer than a month.

and funny thing.. i just blogged about this the other day.. sometimes whatever u wished for do come true.. even if ur wish is only in passsing.

ya.. my future hubby david cook singing his rendition of Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas & Happy Christmas (The War Is Over).



enjoy the season.
its only 20 days away -
and its gonna be a lonnnnnnnng 20 days..

David -vs- David

and the battle continues..

do you prefer..

little archie-boy??
"CRUSH"

archuletta's debut selling at 183k copies

or...

rocker cookie-dude??
"LIGHT ON"

cook's debut selling at 280k copies

i do *h.e.a.r.t* them both equally.. u know like mothers love their children equally? well, its something like that. not that i consider them my baby boys..

well personally - on a physical level - id probably prefer to make out with cookie-dude rather than archie-boy.. but then again, we'll never know.. give it a few years, id probably prefer archie.. errr... not to say im a cradle snatcher..

just a thought. u know.
haha.

cook is still hot as ever..
looks like he can still gives me that instant 'O' with that killer stare.

damn..

archie just makes me smile... give me that tingling feeling inside..
or in his word, 'What A Feeling!!!'

hmmm... i wonder if they release any christmas album.. wonder how "The Christmas Song" would sound like if cook were to sing it.. nice tu kannnnn... maybe i should google some more..

well.. on that note..
looks like i have a busy nite ahead..

over and out..

go team davids.
yes. plural.

twilight schmilight..

its not the best movie of the year..

but considering all things and taking into account the not-so-famous director and who tf the script-writer anyway??

well.. what can i say?
they totally ruin it but good try??

yeah.. no standing ovation from me this time.
it was a good attempt trying to make the book come alive.

but really?? i dont think they even deserve the 70million.. if not for the psychotic readers like me and about 50% of the female population.. i dont think the movie would even hit..

everything was rushed.. u cant even breath in the storyline and appreciate the moment. and do not even blink coz u will definitely missed a scene.

the funniest thing was that.. twilight is one of the thinnest of the series.. and they (the summit people) tried to put everything into that 2 hours or so..

imagine doing that to eclipse or god forbid.. breaking dawn.. o.m.j.
i truly dont want to imagine it.

new moon is on production as im banging my head on the wall now. either change the director or the scriptwriter or the editor.. coz one of them must've done a very very bad job in rushing through the story and cutting off alot of scene - some of the scene from the trailer didnt even make the cut.

wtf summit?? was it u?? or was it the cinema here??
the kissing scene were totally cut off.. but i think thats just the cinema here..

will i ever ever watch it again?? of course i would. without a doubt.
i just hope my eyes can take all the rollings. im hoping in doing that (not the rolling eyes part!).. i might slowly change my mind about this movie .. who knows, i might even like it..

key word - "like".

im not a professional critic. but i do know a good movie when i see one. and this - had i not read twilight before in my life - id say..

W.T.F. is the phenomena all about??

this is almost like that "WORLD" guy.. the one that hits this timezone almost tsunami like - and when u actually see it... u were like.. huh?? (with more eyes rolling rolling like nobody's business)..

hmmm... cant wait for the dvd version to come out.. maybe i'll get to see that extra scene that didnt quite make it to the movie.



now.. the good part.. there are some good scene.. one particular scene actually. the prom scene where bella & edward dance. that was the only time i actually felt they were really into the character..

and yeah.. this song.. can u hear it??
for me - that is the only good thing in the movie. this song.

and that moment.

thats about it.

over and out.

O Christmas Tree.. O Christmas Tree...

im so full of christmas spirit..

aghh... i cant wait for my pay to come out and go christmas shopping like MADDDDDDDDDD....
present shopping nanti la ah...

me ME MEEEEEEEEEEE first..

anyway.. after few days of doing it.. our christmas tree finally done..
in the sense that we got nothing more to add on it..

not enough lighting-lah.. not enough ornament-lah..

but so far so good..
the last few years.. we've been following this rigid theme.. pink theme la.. gold theme la.. blue theme la.. this year.. im thinking to do away with the theme..
we used blue lightings... LOTS & LOtS of it.. gold+red+blue+creamy ornaments..
so far - so good..

maybe this weekend we'll get some more..
maybe some hanging santa or something christmasy..
penat i see bulat sana bulat sini.. every year like that..


hmmmm... i wonder how VSK gonna put the lightings nanti..
rosak la my decor tu..
hmmmmm... sure can one..

happy putting up christmas tree everyone..
:D

It's Official..

damn..

these r 4 me..


and these r 4 u..


i dunno y.. but the other one (NOT hippo) kinda reminds me of SK..
likes to enter frame - make a fool of herself - then go out - then repeat..
though not necessarily in that order..

on that note..
here's something in my head today....

Nobody can go back
and start a new beginning,
but anyone can start today
and make a new ending.

have a nice weekend ahead.

Yesterday

I just cant believe u're gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Want to see if the sun will rise
Without you by my side
When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it all reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday - in my heart
In my heart

[***chorus***]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams - Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams - Take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday



You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
0r at least where the story goes
[I never believed it until now]
I know I'll see you again - I'm sure
No it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night - one more day
One more smile on your face
But they can't take yesterday

repeat [***chorus***]

I thought our days would last forever
[But it wasn't our destiny]
'Coz in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
No I can - believe me
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

repeat [***chorus***]

Take everything
But they can never have yesterday

By: Leona Lewis

Seven Things

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me, not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and it's silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you
You do

By: Miley Cyrus

Unwritten

I am unwritten
- can't read my mind
- I'm undefined

I'm just beginning
- the pen's in my hand
- ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is - where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten



I break tradition
- sometimes my tries
- are outside the lines

We've been conditioned
- to not make mistakes
- but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching - for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open

Today is - where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

By: Natasha bedingfield
OST: The Hills