Mou Pai....

See what happened when we played Lap Lap Fu...


First.... Tun Fa Soon...


Second.... No small number.... Not so sure on the terms...

"Declare" la.. What else...


Third....again.... same as above....


Lastly... Three Kingdom..

Back home i call it "3 kampung" but apparently its suppose to be "3 negara"...

Oh well...

Did i mention i got the cards 4 times consecutively....

Nice eh?

new public enemy

Mr Pinky's Owner asked me, 'Do you eat weird food?'

Im from that land below the wind. of course i eat weird food. duh.

*eyes rolling rolling*

*HIM* : 'that worm in bamboo shoot?'

well.. in my head - i kinda thought of 'butot'.. u know.. that white fat worm..

and yes..

a very very VERY long time ago.. with super emphasis on the very part.. i ate it like keropok.. obviously, after its fried and all..

then..

eSKay : 'ehhhh... bamboo shoot got worm?'

*Him* : 'nah.. its the same like lala.. clams.. u know'

eSKay : 'okkkkk... thats not so weird then.. im ok with weird food...'

so eksi one kan.. heeeee

something like this came to our table... of course i didnt think of taking pictures last night.. but it looks exactly like the above pic.. just change the bawang with long beans..

*yeah.. i googled the pix.. :D*


eSKay : *wth!!* 'what is that?'

*Him* : 'its like bamboo shell.. but its from the sea'

eSKay : 'how come i've never seen it before?'

*Him* : 'you sure you've seen ALL the fishes in the sea?'

blah. blah. blah..

*malas sia oh!*

thing is.. it looks over the top weird that there should be a new definition for weird.

its like *kerudut.kerudut* then - got pointed tip..

and if i dunno any better.. it almost look like that *li'l dude*.. u know!!!.. THAT dude.. apparently, the guys referred it as some non-existence supermega dude..

but thats beside the point..

:)

anyways..

i was still curious and went over to the stall where Mr Pinky's Owner ordered it from..

eSKay : 'helooo... ini apa nama ah?'

unknown owner cum cook : 'bamboo clam'

seriously???

so.. i googled some more since i need to know what it looks like underwater..

and well.. i never really seen it before..

ewwww...

another 'thing' added to my 'public-enemy' list.

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p.s.

mrP *b4 StepUp* : we can always catch step up 1st..
then resident evil some other day..
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mrP *after StepUp* : omg. u made me watch this!!!


men!
*dush.dush*

spidey attempt..

venue: seksyen 13, shah alam.. some extreme sport place..

dunno la what u call that place..
the plan was to watch them do the climbing wall bit.

yeah right..
when did i ever go according to plan anyway... right?

to do or not to do??
can or not??
cannot reach - how?

"cannnn..." they all said.
"can one.."

so.. can la..

first few steps.. macam senang ni..

still can..

now.. both my arms and legs starting to bergegar already..
where to reach next ah??

my hand short la wei...

still trying..

"luruskan kaki kiri.. push ur body.."

demmit...

seee la...
how not "womanly" that position is..

stretch.. reach...

jauh lagi ka???

"almost there eSKay.."

this part i think was the hardest one for me..
everything was far..
bear with me people with the whinnings
hehhee.. yeah i whined alot..

kenot reach.. i wanna go down...
my hand sakit already...

"sikit lagi eSKay..." principal said..

arggghhh..
why la i do this? why la..

woweee..
even i can see the top..

almost there..
dont give up now..

last step.. before im allowed to go down..
yay!!

first attempt.. passed with flying colours..
weeeehoooooooooo!!!
:D

best...
syok giler i tell u.....

as NIKE once said,
Just Do It.

today..
i think i just did.

:)

back to school...

the venue was Sekeping Tenggiri @ Jln Tenggiri, Bangsar..

its a 2 units of 2 storey houses (well, i think its 2 units) converted into a homestay or well.. something like that.. Im not sure what to call it.. coz its not B&B - seeing that breakfast are not provided.. and its not really a hotel.. its just a small resort kinda thing.

whatever la.

the place is super nice. cozy. the designs are basic with an edge. most are recycled stuff - and the materials used are mostly raw materials. that's ID terms i quoted straight from VSK.

anyway... see that pool there? that's where everybody - and i do mean - e.v.e.r.y.b.o.d.y. was thrown into. you can either do it voluntarily, which most of the guys did - minus a few - or by force - which most of the girls chose to put themselves in that predicament.

as for me, i didnt plan to jump at all and i thought i was safe coz i kinda told everybody that i didnt bring any change of clothes. which was true. for insurance, i put my hp nicely in my pinafore pocket. but, as the night progresses.. i knew it then it was only a matter of time.

the guys came to me without any warning... i kena 3 times.

1st time when i was still dry and still looking super cute (ahem!). even holding my handphone with dear life couldnt safe me. thank you adam.

the 2nd time when i was already 70% dry. thank you boy.

the 3rd time when i was already wet.. trying to dry myself. thank you danjoe.

nanti korang!!

the rule was ALL EXIT WET. no exception.
demmit.

well.. the reason for the occasion was to celebrate az.reen's birthday. met her during the mabul/sipadan trip. and here, we joined her group of friends instead.

the best thing was that, large number of that group shall be going to that tioman diving trip end of this may. so, if anything, this would be the best way to break the ice.

there are alot of other pictures - if u r in FB, probably u can see some of it. there's almost 200 pictures there just from the night itself.

otherwise, some of it, u may find in VSK's blog : Class of 2010

the above pics were self timed which took 10 shots. but only a few is available in fb. the rule is to look at the *pose* of each one of them and without even seeing the rest of the pictures, u will know (kinda) that they are not just crazy bunch of peopple but for real, macam monyet..

hehehhehe....

but what really amazes me was that..

why is it that i look much younger and *in the zone* now..??

compare to back then??

or is it just me - in denial?
oh damn.

30s are the new teens.

wouldnt have blog about the night has it not been that one significant event - this year at least.

well, its only january right?

i mean, it has happened before. so, im not really surprise there. but it has been a few years since the last time it happened. so, the fact that it happened again, at this age.. really really uplift my spirit. or at least i'd like to think so.

im gonna take it as a positive thing.

the night started as usual. me & VSK getting ready. VSK change clothes twice. me... nah..

saw msG at the entrance waiting for us. told us to Q to pay for the cover charge.

ok.. remember i was mentioning about that 'significant' event??

well... i was stopped at the entrance..

wtf?

"can i see your IC?"

for goodness sake. he MUST be kidding me!!!

im not even in my 20s anymore-la.. i quickly scanned the place to see whether there's any cutie around that area laughing their arse off at this supposedly 'underage' girl trying to gain entry into 0pera...

as much as it amounts to a compliment *ya.. this woman gonna take it as such* .. bouncers asking for my IC has always been an embarrassment to me..

what is the age limit anyway? 16? 18??
i mean, for real??

do i really look like im in my teens??

i quickly showed the bouncer my IC.. VSK was already laughing her arse off.. though, since they're already checking mine.. they might as well check hers ... its one of them 'perks' of going in right after me.. even my friends / sisters will be deemed 'underage'..

ya. get over it.

the bouncer gave a short laugh - more like a chuckle when he saw my IC.. ya ya.. im way way over the age limit...

well.. it was a nice night.

more to come, i hope?

but of course.
:D

la'er people.

... at last....

*im 21. with 34 years of wisdom*

yup.. in other words.. im 34 today..

im not shy to admit that.. but i hate acknowledging the number.. coz another year.. i shall no longer be in the range of early 30s.. i'll be mid-30s.. and yet, i have nothing to show for it.. by nothing, i meant no mr hubby and children which is supposedly fulfilled my life purpose..

or so said the orang tua-tua.. :P

yada yada yada...

and ya ya.. with age comes wisdom.. what wisdom?? big talk only that.. where got wisdom one.. macam biasa ja ni..

its funny how i look at other people my age.. they seemed so together. so matured. so in control of themselves.. and yet - me?? im in a mess... half the time i dunno what im doing. half the time.. i wonder why am i still doing the silliest of mistake which i should've learned a long time ago..

truthfully.. i am still the same as i was during my school days.. i still talk rubbish when im nervous.. i can still 'terpeleot' while walking on flat surface and langgar dinding while im at it.. i can still laugh over something that doesnt make sense *but it makes sense to me*.. i still dunno alot of things in life *but always good in pretending* that i actually know stuff.. i still cry over very short and touching advertisment.. i still cant lie without letting people know im lying.. unless if i plan beforehand.. then im the best actress.. *me thinks*.. i still live in my own lala land.. i dun really have principle but i tried holding on to whats best at any given time...

haha. thats alot of information already..

so u think u know me already..?

im definitely weird.. im not one in a million.. im just weird. and im beginning to like myself that way.

weird is the new normal..
havent u heard?

met an old friend last night.. well.. he said.. 'masih tak nak kalah ah??'
and just to set the record straight.. its not about winning an argument.. though i cant really remember what was it now.. its more about not giving in to everything he said. its argument for argument's sake..

ahem. *winning comes in close second*...

but i hate it when people just put a fullstop to this healthy bantering "bah.. kau la tu menang.."..
damn.. not that i hate *HATE* it.. its just no fun-la like that..

anyway.. had a great time last night with one of my old buddy.. i was at the right place.. im glad for the change of venue last minute.. *my doing* and im seeing the face i wanted to see when the clock strikes 12.. even if its from afar... almost as if im celebrating it with a certain someone back when i was 21.. and imagining that this person actually remembers it with lurveee *ok opps* .. though he didnt. and to know that there was a time when he was forced to remember it no matter what..

i wonder now.. how could he forget?? i didnt forget. so, how could he?
is he only realising it now? if - at all...?

well.. u win some .. u lose some..

and in this case.. i think im definitely on a losing end.. not that i mind.. coz that was one drama i dun think im able to handle.. not for the second time around anyway. haha.. but the idea of it seems to consume me everytime i see the face.. coz i love that face.. i literally love the owner of that face.. well.. u know what i mean.. some thing u just cant help but to feel more than u should.

i think today is a good day.. i was surprisingly calm the whole day.. no difficult client to handle.. my files seems to be all in order.. for today-la.. and it feels like everything is going the way its supposed to go..

on a negative side of it.. i cant imagine tomorrow.. sure something happen ni..

anyway.. thank u all for all the wishes.. really really appreciated.. its nice.

now.. there's only one more thing that could make this day just perfect. just one more thing.
and im still waiting.

:)

yes. its u mr president.

who else?

the Ex-factor

i didnt think my heart could drop any lower.
but apparently.. it can happen.

i was just sitting there with my friends.. laughing.. and talking.. and laughing.. and talking.. and i didnt really anticipate this.. God knows i didnt plan any of it.

of course at the back of my mind.. i did kinda hope it would happen. i knew he was working @ the restaurant.. i just didnt know that it was THAT particular branch. not like i know whether there's any other branches around here anyway.. so.. i dunno what made me suggested the place in the first place..

i so dun wan to be that super stalker coz i wasn't. i am not.
*evil laugh*

even if he's there... i thought i was only gonna get to see a glimpse of him from afar.. probably on the way to the ladies or something.. which means that there would be a lot of trip to the ladies just to have that glimpse.. or two.. or three.. or four..

ok. u get the picture right.

my friends were all into it.. we'll hold your hand through it all and all that shit.. yeah yeah.. big talk only that.

so... we were sitting there.. and a familiar face walked towards the bar.. and sit there. still oblivious to this one particular girl whom was staring *while polluting the air that was already polluted*

and i have this goosebump all over.. one minute i feel cold. next i was hot. all over. i was sweating (without the actual sweat) but im shivering from the inside out. its all so very confusing. my mind stop working. my heart literally forget how its suppose to function. to beat or not to beat..

beat la u effing shit. i need to breath..
breath.
breath.

*fcuk... its him* told my friends. they all knew about him a long time ago.

and its been so long.. so long - infact - more than a decade since i last saw him.. the last time we actually spoke (*FB doesnt count*) was that last day when he said his last 'goodbye'.. and in my head i said 'see you later'..

it was not a *situation* i would place my self into. ever. again.

how do one act when one see their 'once upon a time' love of their life (literally!!) sitting right across? what is the procedure? do you smile? do you acknowledge each other? do you pretend? i have other ex-s but i maintain contact with most of them.. you know all that 'still friend' crap... and it works for me.. that 'still-friend' crap is totally not just b.s.

it can happen.
i dun really get the *clean-break* *past-is-past* concept anyway. no matter how much i said the mantra in my head. i just cant agree with the concept. and, mask all out of the window. that is truly not me.

coz no matter what happens in your life.. good or bad. they were once yours. you were once theirs. and they have seen (*or experienced*) the worst of you and the best (*if there is. of course there is!!*) of you. they know how your mindset works. they know how conniving li'l evil (*at times*) you can be. they know how you would walk through fire for them (*one way of saying it*)

its true. only they know.
*family doesnt count*

and this guy.. he knows me.
and i would say - inside out.

i never had the chance to put on this mask of angel before things happened with him.

we never had the chance to become friends. before and after.
it was *something* at first sight. wham bham. we were inseparable since. we were comfortable with each other even before i can spell comfortable.

*i waved*
*he waved*

fcuk.

and i dun even know how to order drinks when all this while, i'll definitely order wine.

"hi"
"hi. how are you?"
"im fine. how are you?"
"good. good."

*i smile*
*he smile* - that smile.

*can i die now???* - i asked myself.

no need to go into detail la.. suffice to say.. we talked for a while. about the menu. - my friends were good in pretending like nothing happened.

he went back to where he was. at the bar. i looked around.

*what the hell is he doing sitting there??? i cant do anything! i cant even form proper conversation. i cant even eat for crying out loud.*

"you should go and talk to him.." a friend suggested.
"go there. talk to him."

fcuk. i am so not gonna do that.

12am. HE arranged for a tiramisu to be sent out. it was my friend's bday (*happy birthday woman!!!* now go pray for me!!!*) so, that was nice of him. not like we didnt think of that in the first place anyway. the whole crowd sang. or at least us and the staffs..

he came over. said his bday wishes. common friend. so, i get that.
"why dont you sit with us?" a friend suggested to him.

*he is so gonna get it later.*

HE sat.

i just want the night to be over and done with.
my tongue is no longer functioning. how do i speak when i cant even form a proper sentence?

ok. when im nervous.. my vocabulary is very very limited. my words will all jumble up even i cant understand what im talking about.

*pollute air some more*

my friend is very good in making conversation *more like crap* just to get the ball rolling.

i turned to him.
he turned to me.

and words just came out from my mouth.
we talked. we laughed. we *bongo* each other.
- words we used last time which equivalent to being sarcastic. or outright talk.

no mask. no b.s.

and wa-lah.. 1.5 hours later... i survived.

what was it i was nervous about in the first place?

today i have my very own closure.
it was a very nice impromptu meet up. i couldnt have planned it any other way.

*it would be nice though if had a brad pitt sitting beside me*

but even then. im happy today.

for today, i have a new friend.

after all these years, today, he is no longer this ex i feel the need to curse from afar when i feel that *history* sipping into my system and reminds me the pain i needed to forget.

- past is *finally* past.

and to you A.. it was nice meeting you after all these years. after all this wondering when the hell am i gonna see you again. thank you for being nice and not cringe and scream and run towards the opposite direction.

*of course nobody does that to me - just so we are clear on that subject*

- think of london. think of me.

i guess its true what they said.
- what happens in london. stays in london.

*ok. leave vegas out of this. this is my blog!!!*

a chapter close.
a new door opens somewhere else.

its about time.

:)

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having said that..

damn im hungry now!!
i cant eat

- remember?????

grrrrrr... its cold in here...

i've been going out of my mind for days now.. due to few stuffs in my head - well, there's really nothing to it - really.. just being over dramatic..

ya.. there's really something wrong with me..

we started off at The Apartment.. nice place to have dinner.. though i think i ordered the wrong food. well, no pic of food now.. coz my blog seems to be posting alot of it.. and im trying not to make that a trend here.. coz im really supposed to be on diet and have the superHOT body before Bali.. :)


havent seen my neighbour for like.. a decade or more.. which is weird.. the last time i seen her - she was still in her teens.. now she's someone's wife..


it was nice seeing faces from home.. though, like us.. she had totally migrated here..

anyway, our friend here heard of this bar where its literally all ice or something.. of course i was imagining snow and stuff like that.... so, there we were - after our nice dinner and catching up old times - wondering around at the roads of the Curve, looking for something snowy-like..


yup - this is the place.. it looks a bit fire-y.. but its the right place.. though we were unsure at first standing at the entrance like "betul ka tidak ohhhh??" there's a signboard outside written ICE BAR.. it cannot be more obvious than that - rite??


a bar within a bar.. see that door behind us??


belum masuk lagi.. this one just for show only.. its freaking HOT - we were all sweating inside out.. we were embracing the moment and getting ready for the extreme coldness thats gonna hit us soonnnn...


before that.. there are few rules to adhere.. all easy ones-lah.. no hard core rules..


group picture is a must.. we were freezing but manage to control kecantikkan.. the temperature drops from 100 degrees outside (very hot bah!!) to zero degrees inside..
grrrr very the cold lah... too bad.. no snow.. itd be totally cool if got snow.. kan??


anyways.. one of the rules - 1 shot of smirnoff for a 10 minutes inside (can lah) - 1 bottle of smirnoff for half an hour (well we dun really plan to drop on our faces by end of the night) - maybe some other times?? cannn??? pleaasssssseeee... :)


so.. one for each of us.. its smirnoff orange - orange - citrus and baileys..


yeah.. i love following where the camera goes.. i just couldnt help it..


apart from the jacket (which is provided by the Bar) - to keep you warm, u need to down ur drinks..

but it'll only keeps u warm for a second..

grrrrrrrrr........ grrrrrrr..... grrrrrrrrrrrrr....


even part of the walls covered with ice.. niceee eh.


the camera-woman didnt really capture the moment where i tried licking the ice .. imagine if my tongue stuck to that ice.. damn..

again.. just ignore me...


haha.. trying to brave that cold.. it was a few second kinda thing.


even the so-called sofa that we sat on was made of ice.. i wonder if they ever turn the aircond off... had to carve another sofa la tu kan?? .. maybe they just let the aircond run and run and run.. hmmm.. i wonder how much their electricity bill...


got bar also in this bar.. ice cubes everywhere.. but this time.. i didnt even think of eating it like popcorn like i always do..

believe me.. we were in there less than 10 minutes.. it was too cold.. we were jumping up and down trying to keep warm.. and my toes almost - almost had a frostbite.. ok.. im exaggerating but i did say 'almost' mah..

GC said its 'LUCK' in sanskrit.. nice.. i love anything feng shui-y.. :)

back to the hot weather.. ish ish ish.. so not syok one!!! feel like going inside again.. soon bebeh sooonnn.. i am so gonna go there again.. the night could've been happening if not for the turn of event - still, that short time in that ICE BAR.. it was totally happening..

now.. if only they had snow...
peace out.