Dancing Queen

life can be so funny sometimes.

i usually start out with that line when something is bothering me.
so, do read on to have a peek into the complexity of how my head works - which is just that. even i myself cant understand it at times.

life can bring u to places u didnt really planned to be at any given moment. yet you find yourself dancing around that place for so long you tend to forget how to stop dancing - and it hurts more than anything to dance - at that place especially - but you just cant help it when dancing around that place is the only thing that made sense in your head - though you do once in while - when logic overrides your stupidity - think back whether the place worth the stupid dance or could it be the dancing bit is one big long mistake and not to mention stupid to begin with.

you feel stupid. and it has been said before - still..

there will be time, when you find yourself strong - in a way - to let go of dancing - and stop to even think of visiting or acknowledging the existence of the place. and you find yourself though not as whole but relieved.

and before you know it, a decade had passed - and you find yourself in that place again, and you dance again like never before - giving all you have and received nothing in return - still hoping - still naive - still the same as when you first found the place. bringing you to a full circle - yet never a complete circle as the end of the circle just doesnt seem to meet no matter how much you will it to happen.

and when its over - you smack your head - probably for the millionth time - feeling stupid as always - for allowing the dance to begin with.

again
- and again
- and again.

you wanted it to end once and for all. yet refused to acknowledge that fact out loud coz as much as it hurts, u know why u dance. the place inspires you to dance and more. but still contemplating on it every single second of the day.

like the world issues are not enough.
like work issues are not enough.
like life issues are not enough.

see how funny life can be?

- life is a comedy - to those who think;
yet a tragedy - to those who feels.

moral of the story:
dont feel.


i guess, thats all there is to it.