Where Are You Christmas...?

i fell asleep earlier just now. around 9ish. next thing i know VSK was standing on my doorstep..

"ui.. kenapa ko tidur oh??"

wtf..

why am i sleeping?? duh... i just looked at her still trying to process whatever it is she's trying to say..

"mari pi makan.."

.... still blur...

"sia lapar oh..."

... still blur...

"bangun!!"

and then i got up.. cis!! .. and we went makan.. well, basically, she ate (again! - as we went earlier just now) and i drank. and yeah, i had ice cream too. it was too nice a nite to refuse one. it was cold, windy and .... dunno la..

and now, i cant sleep.

damn.

i havent had a good night sleep for the past few nights now.. i kept on waking up every few hours due to nightmares (though i cant really remember some part of it) and then i had to on the lights (*guntalou kan..) - while still trying to keep the sleeping momentum.

[* guntalou = penakut]

i hate having nightmares - which is weird coz i dun even watch horror movie. so the only possible reason is that something is bothering me big time. or someone is. or maybe something bad is gonna happen. as long as i dun dream of wedding, bring it on!!!

no theory now. but thats just it.
the main thing is i cant sleep.

me not liking august that much.
same goes to september.
and i think, same goes to october too.

i cant wait for november - when EVERYthing bothering me now is FAR FAR away - as FAR as possible so that my life can go back to normal like it did before august came.

November, please come sooner..
please please..
nah.. on second thought, make that Christmas.

i know its not even Raya yet... even we still have Deepavali..
but wat the hell, i want Christmas to come.
and i want it NOW..

ugh..

thanks to all this sleepless nights
- i probably have lung cancer by now.