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my weekends are gonna be busy very very soon..

since i actually posted my new year's resolution in this particular blog - which is a BIG mistake on my part.. (damnit!!!) - i have to set an example.. to myself mostly..and make sure that i can strike MOST of it at the end of the year.

nothin conclusive yet.. since i havent even started any of it.. not yet anyway.. the intention is there..

and for now.. that is more than enough.

about the resolution thingy.. i went out with one of my dearest friend the other night.. and i told him about my resolutions and that i actually blogged about it.. coz its been years since i had resolution - so, it is something to brag about..

or so i thought....

and my dearest friend.. the one person whom is supposed to understand me than most people.. the one person in the world (errr..i expect this from everybody actually.. haha..) whom is supposed to agree with me wholeheartedly - with no conviction - none whatsoever - that im still 16 when i say im 21.. the one person whom is supposed to say there is still none whatsoever wrinkle appears on my face even after all these years (coz - there - really - is - still - NONE )... (too much obligation eh?? hahha)

he had only one question..

and it was the question i dreaded the most..

"errr... settling down is not one of them??"

ppfftttt....

thank you for putting it out there mr T..

it made me wonder why though.. when i made the list.. it didnt even entered my mind.. for a while there, i actually believed i was still 21..

just to rub it in.. he asked me the 2nd most dreaded question..

"how old are you again??"

wth man!!!

it was all in fun.. but now that i think about it.. he actually raises a very good question - or two, if you're rather technical about it.. question that i have been avoiding almost all my adult life thus the lack of social interaction with the elderly relatives..

so.. for those who plan to ask or think about asking the question just to rub salt against my already deep wound.. and not for anything else.. please try not to ask.. coz i truly dont have the answer.. even if i do have the answers.. i refused to be sucked into this 'expiry date' system..

i'll get there in my own time. thank you very much.

i wish im strong enough to just close one eye and grab just about anybody.. as this was what advised by many.. dont be too choosy.. but to tell u the truth.. that is the one thing i cant do.

i believe in all things romance.
over the top - to die for - heart stop beating - everlasting - till death do us part - romance
and im holding on to that.

**cough-cough-david-cough-cook-cough-cough**

hahaha.


p.s. its after 2am now.. and i cant sleep.. and this entry is all due to lack of sleep and mind not working correctly. i hold no responsibility whatsoever on the aforementioned entry as it is also under the influence of boredom and monday blues.

p.p.s. enough of that.. i need to get my beauty sleep. and retime my tidur time.. its all going haywire now since the long holidays..

p.p.p.s. damn. me so tired..

sleep little girl. sleep!!!

errr...

over and out???