not official yet..

"how come you're not out partying?"

10-15 years ago.. i would have. now, its the last thing i even contemplate to do.

though - there will be a wining session this weekend. *lets hope the climbing bits didnt go overboard that i totally given up the idea of having a session*

its still the early hours of my new age. do i feel any different? no. but i do wish somehow some kind of wisdom bestowed upon me where i would feel more mature. more collected. u know more like an adult rather than going from one day to the next not exactly knowing where she's heading to.

its not like new year where you can make a new start. though one shouldn't wait for that new year to make that new start..

owell - whatever works for u..

but i was looking at the mirror earlier for the longest time to check if there's any new 'line of wisdom' making an appearance on my face.

and lately, i am starting to question about alot of things in my life. whether its worth going after. or whether its time to give up everything and start all over again in a new environment.

coz lets face it. there's not much to stick out for wherever i am now.
for now - all i can say is that - 'hope' is very a weird concept.

nevertheless - whatever life throws at me - i'll say, bring it on.
i'm through understanding what life is all about.

coz life is just that. good or bad. it goes on. it doesnt wait for you to figure it all out.

my life has always been complicated anyway.
it started out complicated. as i grow into adulthood - it became very VERY complicated.
as im trying the life of an adult - it became even more complicated.
now - its just as complicated as ever.

so.. on that note.. happy birthday me :)

i am now officially a mature and responsible adult who has the necessary wisdom to make important decisions in life.
*vomit blood*

damn im old !

hmmm.. ok. the countdown to my 2nd bday begins.
see what i mean when i said complicated?
hah!!

p.s.
u asked me what i wanted.
u?
told u.
u cant afford it.