post PMS.

a concerned friend asked me recently, "how are you today?"

he's just the sweetest thing ever.

i told him exactly what i was feeling, "its like stockmarket. sometimes its up. sometimes its down. then its up again. then its down again."

i wish i can feel somewhere in between.

indifference.
thats the word i was looking for.

i need a good night sleep.
i need a good night sleep without any nightmares.
i need a good night sleep without having to count sheep for the millionth time.

where are the virus when u needed one?
are there no germs around me?

i need to get away.
i need to get real sick and take real MC for days and just sleep and sleep and sleep.

this is too hard.

sometimes, i get so fed up with living that i wish God will just take me in my sleep.
but thats just stretching my wish a little bit too far.

haha.

im just overly tired.
or maybe it post-pms. if there's such a thing.

God knows.