it has been a crazy few weeks for me..
i havent had the chance to breath yet.. and i thought after 3 long weeks, i can finally breath in deeply and have a free-from-whatever-it-is weekends..
i've been flying off here and there for few weeks now.. im starting to forget what normal weekend feels like..
everything happened so fast.
the accident was unexpected. the death was imminent. its only a matter of timing. the lady (so i've been told) hit my uncle somewhere around 3pm.. ran off (our version) or apparently to her version, took off and left my uncle on the road.. reason being : to fetch her brother.
and they (again, i heard and they being the lady & the brother) came back around 8pm to that same road (for real ka?) to take my uncle to hospital.
as i was not in KK to hear whats the actual story is.. that is the story that i can gather.. in a nutshell.. so, real life event may differs totally..
thing is.. im not sure whether im mad at the lady (whomever she is) for leaving for whatever her reason is (coz i simply cant accept 'panic' as a good reason - its not even considered a reason) or for people everywhere that area around 3pm-8pm for not stoping by and be a good samaritan.
he (my late uncle) never regain conciousness.. but according to the description that my mum was able to describe.. it was bad.. it was so bad.. that my mind refuses to process the whole thing and my mind shut it down completely..
and the whole situation scares me.. in that im begining to think that we are all taking life for granted. anybody can be taken away from our life anytime without warning.. and those people whom you thought will somehow be around will one day not being there anymore.. and i started to ponder and question myself, what am i doing here chasing for the dream that i dont even know what is? working for the sake of getting more income?? - when instead all along i can be at home where my whole life is..
money afterall is just that. money.
it saddens all of us.. coz death, even if its someone we barely spent our time and thought with all this while - is gone.. its a slapped to our face that we never really make the effort to appreciate the gift.. which is time... coz time, if anything - is something that cannot be repaid.. if its over. its over.
im not sure what to think now.
my mind is still processing the whole thing.
im sad for now. and scared for the future.
to my cousins.. my heart goes out to all of u..
to my uncle.. i hope u dont feel that much of pain. and may your soul rest in peace.
"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal,
- love leaves a memory no one can steal."
i havent had the chance to breath yet.. and i thought after 3 long weeks, i can finally breath in deeply and have a free-from-whatever-it-is weekends..
i've been flying off here and there for few weeks now.. im starting to forget what normal weekend feels like..
everything happened so fast.
the accident was unexpected. the death was imminent. its only a matter of timing. the lady (so i've been told) hit my uncle somewhere around 3pm.. ran off (our version) or apparently to her version, took off and left my uncle on the road.. reason being : to fetch her brother.
and they (again, i heard and they being the lady & the brother) came back around 8pm to that same road (for real ka?) to take my uncle to hospital.
as i was not in KK to hear whats the actual story is.. that is the story that i can gather.. in a nutshell.. so, real life event may differs totally..
thing is.. im not sure whether im mad at the lady (whomever she is) for leaving for whatever her reason is (coz i simply cant accept 'panic' as a good reason - its not even considered a reason) or for people everywhere that area around 3pm-8pm for not stoping by and be a good samaritan.
he (my late uncle) never regain conciousness.. but according to the description that my mum was able to describe.. it was bad.. it was so bad.. that my mind refuses to process the whole thing and my mind shut it down completely..
and the whole situation scares me.. in that im begining to think that we are all taking life for granted. anybody can be taken away from our life anytime without warning.. and those people whom you thought will somehow be around will one day not being there anymore.. and i started to ponder and question myself, what am i doing here chasing for the dream that i dont even know what is? working for the sake of getting more income?? - when instead all along i can be at home where my whole life is..
money afterall is just that. money.
it saddens all of us.. coz death, even if its someone we barely spent our time and thought with all this while - is gone.. its a slapped to our face that we never really make the effort to appreciate the gift.. which is time... coz time, if anything - is something that cannot be repaid.. if its over. its over.
im not sure what to think now.
my mind is still processing the whole thing.
im sad for now. and scared for the future.
to my cousins.. my heart goes out to all of u..
to my uncle.. i hope u dont feel that much of pain. and may your soul rest in peace.
"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal,
- love leaves a memory no one can steal."
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