you know how in your first date - or maybe the first few - there's a moment of silence in between conversation or topic.. coz u just cant find anything to say?? that you started to look around and even the table can become a topic?
yeah - well, that is EXACTLY what im feeling here.
which goes well for my blogsite coz obviously the topic itself assumes that im lost. am i lost?? in a way. life wise. mental wise. and all the wise i can actually think of. basically.
so, i guess, not knowing what to say here goes well with the concept.
its the weekend before the pay comes in.
have u ever been so skint that you actually - literally had to "korek tabung".. i remembered once when i was still studying. being skint is a normal phase when its nearing end month. me and my friend had to actually compiled all our 1cents and 2cents enough to buy us 1 box of ciggie. yeah... that thing is actually on top of our food chain. we had been eating rice and egg curry for the past one week.
but who cares about food right?
the idea of being skint during your uni years is different then. back then it was literally and i do mean literally "kosong sen". now, its just the lifestyle that you cant afford but good thing is, the resource for basic necessity i.e. that thing that still somehow end up on top of your food chain is still available.
my idea of being skint now is not being able to go shopping buying unnecessary stuff or that extra few books to add into my collection or that extra saving for rainy days (which is like every other day)...
so, yes. i am very much the miskin now.
im guessing april especially is not a good month to me. and to alot of people. bad lucks seems to befall on alot of people around me. not so much of a bad luck actually. but people around me are getting sick for no apparent reason. maybe its the weather. or maybe its the alignment of the star and the moon that somehow create all this sickness.
2 of my friends in the hospital. one due to be discharged today. thank God. my sis is down with chicken pox and shes preggy. of all times to get that thing. my dad has been under the weather but he's ok now. charlie brown was admitted due to some unknown desease and now getting so thin that im starting to call him, aneroxic dog.
its getting towards the end of the month. so, whatever curse there is has been lifted up. im happy for that. coz i just dont have the strength to be worried. and i tend to worry too much which is not good for my system coz i'll start having nightmares and stuff.
i know i made a deal with God a long time ago. but somehow somewhere i think He must've forgotten all about it. and im scared if He totally forgotten all about it.
I know it doesnt make any sense to you.
but when did i actually made sense?
making sense and me doesnt bode well together.
anyway, had to get ready. had to fetch my dad from the airport.
im glad he's coming over.
i miss home.
yeah.. one day, when im a millionaire..
i hope i can make home my home again.
later.
yeah - well, that is EXACTLY what im feeling here.
which goes well for my blogsite coz obviously the topic itself assumes that im lost. am i lost?? in a way. life wise. mental wise. and all the wise i can actually think of. basically.
so, i guess, not knowing what to say here goes well with the concept.
its the weekend before the pay comes in.
have u ever been so skint that you actually - literally had to "korek tabung".. i remembered once when i was still studying. being skint is a normal phase when its nearing end month. me and my friend had to actually compiled all our 1cents and 2cents enough to buy us 1 box of ciggie. yeah... that thing is actually on top of our food chain. we had been eating rice and egg curry for the past one week.
but who cares about food right?
the idea of being skint during your uni years is different then. back then it was literally and i do mean literally "kosong sen". now, its just the lifestyle that you cant afford but good thing is, the resource for basic necessity i.e. that thing that still somehow end up on top of your food chain is still available.
my idea of being skint now is not being able to go shopping buying unnecessary stuff or that extra few books to add into my collection or that extra saving for rainy days (which is like every other day)...
so, yes. i am very much the miskin now.
im guessing april especially is not a good month to me. and to alot of people. bad lucks seems to befall on alot of people around me. not so much of a bad luck actually. but people around me are getting sick for no apparent reason. maybe its the weather. or maybe its the alignment of the star and the moon that somehow create all this sickness.
2 of my friends in the hospital. one due to be discharged today. thank God. my sis is down with chicken pox and shes preggy. of all times to get that thing. my dad has been under the weather but he's ok now. charlie brown was admitted due to some unknown desease and now getting so thin that im starting to call him, aneroxic dog.
its getting towards the end of the month. so, whatever curse there is has been lifted up. im happy for that. coz i just dont have the strength to be worried. and i tend to worry too much which is not good for my system coz i'll start having nightmares and stuff.
i know i made a deal with God a long time ago. but somehow somewhere i think He must've forgotten all about it. and im scared if He totally forgotten all about it.
I know it doesnt make any sense to you.
but when did i actually made sense?
making sense and me doesnt bode well together.
anyway, had to get ready. had to fetch my dad from the airport.
im glad he's coming over.
i miss home.
yeah.. one day, when im a millionaire..
i hope i can make home my home again.
later.
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