here's hoping....

my entry here has been thus far big capital everything P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C..
damn it..

its not that i don't like to blog here...
and not that im negative to the core.. though i am that li'l bit of negative-optimistic-realistic kinda way... lost u there huh..

its just that the bond with this particular blog is somewhat lacking and i fully blame it on how i started it in the first place... or could be how the blog looks like or could be the title... i dunno... but it is as it is.

lack of bonding thingy - stuff...

i started out this blog when i was too depressed over something that seem so minimal in my head - now that i think about it...
so.. its only right that i only return to this blog whenever i feel the same... and go to my other blogs when im feeling upbeat and all.. i mean, common people... you wouldnt want to hear me whining... that is the last thing u wanna hear - u'll never know it might jus be the last thing u heard before u kiokkkk...

so... just to change the direction of this blog with the hope (*yeahh...) that maybe i can share something positive with you in the near future..
again - yeah right..

i am feeling kinda good actually.. im not sure why... u know how sometimes the air smells differently and its not because somebody just farted... or the first smell of winter - fall.....

u get the drift right???
in case we are not in the same wave-length.. :P

i smell something new around me... like something is happening in the near future and i have no idea what that is... my dreams has been abit funny & strange lately. with all the old faces making an appearance there... not that old hantu faces la... ish.. apa-lah..

let me put it this way.
it is the smell of long-forgotten hope.
simple as that.

so, here's hoping...